A DAY OF FUN

Last Saturday, we had our CE Teambuilding at Enchanted Kingdom. Our activity started after a short welcome program provided by EK staff then the race began. It was sort of as Ferna said on her blog, ala 'Amazing Race' stuff. It was fun because it was nice to roam around EK though it was hot. I was really looking forward for the rides though no one can convince me to ride the Space Shuttle. The last time I was in EK with my team (that's I think last 2005), I had the guts to ride Anchors Away and after the experience, I said to myself, 'never will I ride Anchors Away, ever!' So, I didn't really try Anchors Away this time.

Anyway, Naila's team won. Rocky was their team leader. (Before I forget, when we're still in Metroball before leaving for EK, I was teasing Nyles about her get up. Told her, parang magmamall lang siya…hehe:) poised na poised with matching pink headband and shoes plus with pink kikay necklace pa.) 'To talagang si Nyles, you'll never see her unpretty…she has to be pretty always..hehe:) Going back….I've never tried ferris wheel before but I did last Saturday. I thought madali lang 'yong ride na yon kasi all you need to do is just sit down, ride and look at the view. Pero grabe, isa pala yon sa makakapag-panginig ng tuhod ko, grabe! I never thought that I will be that afraid to the extent that I wasn't really able to help my team mates solve the clues that we're given. E, 3 minutes pa naman yung ride na yon, I had no choice but to endure it.

But what's really exciting for us was after the activities. Nyles, Love, Sir Bench, Reggie, Ferna and I had fun: first sa Log chuva, we're all excited to try it kasi parang wala lang, kayang-kaya. What's funny was, Sir Bench and Rocky sat at the back of the log so Love had no choice but to sit in front. E yun pa naman yung nakakatakot don. I also sat in front of the log kasi inunahan ako ni Nyles and Reggie. We screamed our hearts out when we're on the top na! Second to our itinerary was the Rio Grande. Love and I were having second thoughts because we saw people going out who were really, really wet, as if naligo. Ferna convinced us to try na rin since sama-sama naman kami. So, sumakay na kami. Ferna was the first one who got wet and we all laughed. I thought 'lucky me I won't get wet because it seemed that the tide only goes to Ferna's side. What's funny pa was since umiikot yun, everytime we see the wave magtatawanan na kami lahat, as in our stomachs ached because we're laughing throughout the ride. I think it was Nyles who got wet really the most 'cause of the falls. Unfortunately, siya yung natapatan ng falls, hehe:)  Eventhough I've been there 3x already, I'll always anticipate the fun there especially when you're with friends.

We even thought of staying there to wait for the fireworks (since our bus will leave at 430pm) and it was sort of bitin for us. We wanted to try other rides pa sana but we needed to leave at 430, so we did. Well, we've been looking forward for a team building such as this one, yun talagang mag-eenjoy lang (no worries about work, stress free and all.) I think all of us enjoyed it. Even Sir Bench who declared that he had a vertigo (kunwari), tried lahat ng rides na I wouldn't dare to try hehe:0) Isang challenge kay Sir Bench na nalagpasan niya…super hehe:)

So yun nga, when we got out of Rio Grande, we're all wet, not even our underwears were spared hehe:) what we did, we let ourselves dry up sa Flying Fiesta! Ti' next time…hehe:0)

racquet

Ferna, Ms. Cecille and I played badminton yesterday. T'was my second time to play badminton. The first time was with Chayong and her friends.I really got a big purple bruise and had muscle strain that lasted for about a week. I couldn't really move with ease that time because of the strain.  I've always liked badminton though I never had the time before,  well….maybe because I'm lazy (?).  Hmmm, I think not..I had various physically demanding activities when I was in college. Since I started working I never had the time to be active again nor involve myself with different activities that are not really physically demanding. We really wanted to have extra activities that will at least shy us away from our daily routines. We realized our lack of it and with the influence of friends, I think I'll try to be more active. The advantage of it is that you not only get physically fit but you learn to socialize with others as well and widen your circle of friends.

That's it for the mean time. I wanted to write sana about our night out escapade because we really enjoyed it, the usual girl bonding and all and with pictures to prove it..hehe. Well, next time na lang.

Serenity

Many times I’ve been in this situation where I ask God to give me courage to accept the things I can’t change and to try to change the things I can. Actually, that’s what I’m trying to do now. T’was foolish of me to have prayed for this so many times and yet I’ve never done anything. I just swam with the flow and accepted things without even trying to fight. I’ve been telling myself that maybe I really need to change. That it doesn’t mean when I try to change I will let go of my values, too. Now, I know what to do. I just hope that I’ll be able to fight my weaknessess and be the kind of person I really want to be. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not I don’t like me. There are just some things that I need to improve on, some things that will make me learn more and accomplish more, as a person.

I’ve been stubborn almost half my life. And it got me lost. That’s what I’m struggling with eversince and now, I’ve made up my mind…I’ll try to change the things I can change. Whatever the outcome will be, it’s okay. No pain, no gain. The time to act is now.

thoughts today

Happy Birthday NYLES! (girls night out)

Haven't been writing for quite a while. I guess, I just abandoned my blog just like that…well though I've had slack days the previous week, still I was too lazy to update it.

Anyway, tonight we're going to have our girls night out. Actually, it's an advance birthday celebration for Nyles (her birthday is tomorrow). We're all wearing pink as we feel it will make us feel 'girlier'…hehe:o) We're going to paint the town 'pink.'

We haven't decided yet where we're going after Shangrila. We're thinking if we're going to Cheska's since she's all alone there (Taj is in Malaysia and Love is in Boracay) and watch dvd or have an inuman session or anything goes na lang. Basta, whatever we decide on I'm sure we'll enjoy the night.

Gnawing Feeling

I was chatting with my Kuya yesterday. I told him I want to go abroad since I'm feeling less happy in the past few days. I really can't comprehend why. I'm thinking of so many things. I want to change some things in my life. I want to widen the scope of what I've gotten used to. I want a different environment. I want to feel more inspired and motivated. I want to do things I don't normally do. I want..I want…I want… It seems now that I'm wanting more than before. Somehow, I'm getting bored and a little lazier now. It seems like I feel that my life is so routinary. I go to office everyday, go home, get up again in the morning, go to office again, go home…once in a while I go out with friends.

I know this is just one phase that I'm going through and sooner or later, I'll get over this uncomfortable feeling. When I feel these things, I welcome it because they make me realize how I've been living my life. It makes wake up from a long sleep and try to change even little by little the things I want to change or improve on.

Well, whatever happens. My future/destiny lies in my hands. Only I have the power to change what I need to change, to do what I need to do. So, let's see where will I be 'cause that will tell how I managed my future.  The best is yet to come…I'll try to look for it, work on it and dream it.  A long way to go. I need to be ready….more than ever.

good morning

Lai (a friend from my first job) and I watched Spiderman last Friday at Shangrila. T'was a very good movie and I enjoyed it a lot. Then Jen texted me if we could meet again since Pam was asking if we could have our 'inuman' session (and Pam just went out of the hospital and was staying in a hotel). Flor texted me that she's with Pam already and that Jen and I should just meet her there in Monumento. I told them that I was still watching the movie and will just proceed there maybe with JEn since she too was in Pampanga that time.

The movie ended at around past 9pm (we got there at 630pm). Then me and Lai had a small talk outside Shangrila while smoking. We talked about our jobs, lives and other people. Then she asked me if I have a new prospect already to which I said 'no, none at all.' Lai's also sort of like me, a little conservative and still unattached. I know that she wants to find her prince charming and I told her it will come. Told her too that she doesn't have to mind the pressure other people put on her because it gives her extra worries to carry. She once told me that she envies me because I carry myself well and its as if I don't have pressures of wanting to have a boyfriend, it's like I don't worry at all. It's like I'm not pressured. I just told her, that of course,who would not want to have someone special in your life. It's just that I don't allow other people to pressure me. When it comes to that stuff, I am the only one who can pressure me. After all, I know myself more than they do. I just don't know if Lai has the same faith and belief but sometimes kasi, she's always worrying. It's not that I don't worry at all, of course I do at times but I always manage them because basically, I'm really a worrier too. I just count my blessings and see that my little worries in life are nothing compared to the blessings that I have. She's my friend and I want to impart little things that I learned in life to her and, she to me. 

Whenever I meet different sets of friends or colleagues, I always look forward to this kind of talk. It feels nice to share your thoughts and feelings to the people you care about because you know that they will understand. Most importantly, they listen well and give you a piece of themselves. They know you too well to judge your actions. They believe that whatever made you do a certain thing is because you have a reason for it, they may not agree to it yes, but they respect your decision.

It's really nice to find true friends who make your life even more meaningful despite the distance and the rarity of moments of being physically together.

night out

Last night me and my friends went to one of the bars in Quezon City. We also met with one of the student leaders then in college. T'was a good thing seeing old faces once again. The setting was nice and cozy. There were tables outside the garden and we sat there first and requested for seat reservations inside since live performance starts at 10pm.

Me and Jen cannot relate to what they were talking about anymore. Since Flor works for an NGO, she actively partcipated in the conversation. Pam, Jen and I talked about Miggy (Pam's son) who's our inaanak. Actually, I still haven't seen my inaaanak in person and received no gifts from me yet..hehe:o) since we really seldom see each other. But this Christmas, I'm going to give him a book which Pam said he really loves.

By 10pm, we went inside already. Well, we really did not enjoy the performance (her kind of music was not to our liking.) We were bored to death though our togetherness made the night more bearable. Pam made comments that made us laughed hard. Jen and I were observing the table next to ours and created stories out of what their facial expressions were. 

On Wednesday, the three of us (Me, Jen and Flor) decided to go out again and this time we prefer reggae. I told Jen I'm going to look for a place that for sure they'll like. So, 'til next Wednesday.

tribute to friendship

Tomorrow me and my college bestfriends are going to meet again after a long while. I’m so excited to see them. My friend Jen, who was based in Cebu and flew here, is anticipating the meeting as well. She told me weeks ago that she feels the boredom and loneliness there already. It’s not that she doesn’t have any friends there ( she’s a very likeable and super fun to be with person), per what she told me, if only we her close friends are there, too then her stay in Cebu will even be happier. She sometimes go out by herself and even sleeps in the office because she’s all by herself in the house where her company rents for her.

Jen and I are both single while Pam and Flor are both happy mothers/wives already. I still remember that I used to tease Jen about this guy who had a crush on her during college. She’s still friends with him until now unfortunately, the guy’s married already. Well, I hope that Jen and I will soon meet our partners to be….:o)

I really value our frienship. We’ve gone through thick and thin in our lives during college. Though after graduation we’ve separated ways and went on our own, we never forget each other and each time we meet, the bond gets tighter and tighter. They’ve taught me a lot and I appreciate their love for me as well. They are one of the reasons why I loved college life. We had so many meaningful moments together then. Ours is tested and strengthened by time and love.

Tomorrow, we’ll have a blast.

unfinished poem

I want to share my life with you and face the unknown.

I’m not someone known to take risks

But with you I’ll take that chance.

You know that I’m afraid.

You know I’m full of pride.

You just know me so well.

I want to thank you for what I learned about life.

Some of its complexities.

Some of its joy.

Some of its sorrows.

You taught me well enough.

I lost my concentration and now I can’t continue my poem anymore. Well, I’ll try again next time:o)

i carry you….

to the one who doesn’t know..who never knew….

I carry your heart with me. I carry it in my heart and I’m never without it.  Anywhere I go, you go, my dear. And whatever is done, by only me, is your doing, my darling. I fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet.

I want no world for beautiful, you are my world my true. It’s you or whatever a moon has always meant, and whatever a sun will always sing is you. Here is the deepest secret nobody knows. Here is the root of root and the bud of bud. And the sky of the tree called life which grows higher and higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide. And this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart. I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart.

” I don’t know what is about you that closes and opens, only something in me understands the voice in your eyes is deeper than all roses.”

- ee cummings-

this land is mine

This is one of my favorite songs in Dido’s Life for Rent album, entitled ” This Land is Mine”

from behindt these walls I hear your song, oh sweet words.  the music that you play lights up my world. the sweetest that I’ve heard. could it be that I’ve been touched and turned, oh lord please. finally, finally things are changing.

this land is mine but I’ll let you rule. i’ll let you navigate and demand. just as long as you know, this land is mine. so find your home and settle in. oh, i’m ready to let you in. just as long as we know, this land is mine.

after all the battles and the wards, the scars and loss. i am still the queen of my domain.  and feeling stronger now. the walls are down a little more each day. since you came. finally, finally things are changing.

this land is mine but i’ll let you rule. i’ll let you navigate and demand. just as long as you know, this land is mine. so find you home and settle in. oh, i’m ready to let you in. just as long as we know this land is mine.

for all the days i’ve travelled alone. in this cold and colourless place til now. it’s what i had to pay.