Goodbye and Hello….
Monday, November 19, 2007
My beloved MAXI passed away…just this morning! I usually call out her name every morning before going to the office…that’s everyday..never a day passed by without me calling her or patting her head or greeting her. She wags her tail and jumps around whenever she hears my voice. She has always been like that..very energetic, full of life.
This morning, I called her name and she didn’t move. I thought that she was only sleeping. Then, I left home. I was already in the office when I knew that she passed away because my mother sent me a message. She said that she was supposed to be feeding her breakfast but she’s already dead. I was at my post that time and I couldn’t help crying..so I did. I just couldn’t accept it because I nurtured her, taken good care of her and loved her. I still do. No one can ever take her place.
I had her since 1999. She was a gift from one of my officemates on Valentines Day. She was a happy and playful puppy then. Before that, I never had a dog that I can call my own. I tried to raise one but since I didn’t know much about dogs then, most of them died. I learned from that experience. I’ve brought her to vet so many times in the past because I was afraid of losing her. She was my baby. She is my baby….my Maxi, my Max, my MicMic, my MicMac, my Miki.
I know she felf too how much love I have for her. I was her slave. She was my master. I did my best to take care of her. We treated her as a family member. I know my family is kinda sad, too. It’s just not easy to accept that she’s not with us anymore. I’m really, really sad:(
I love her with all my heart. And now, whenever I think of her, I really feel like crying. I’ll never, ever forget her. Sometimes, I think of not having dogs anymore for the fear of losing them in the end. Death is inevitable…but that shouldn’t keep me…or else I’m going to miss the joys of nurturing another life..the life of a small creature who loved me unconditionally. Hayyy….
I wish that I’ll find someone like her…I’m looking for one..the very exact image of her. I’m going to call her MAXI …again….
Am I being so melodramatic over a dog?
Yes, I am.
…because I love her…
Love knows no boundaries, anyway…
MAXI, don’t worry…in a few months…you’ll be in my arms again. I Love You!
Date of Death: November 19, 2007
