These past few days wala talaga ako sa mood magsulat. Feeling ko wala naming malaking even na nangyayari sa buhay ko to blog about. Feeling ko, boring ang buhay ko. Kaya wala kong maisulat. Pero I think, mali ako to think that way. Hindi naman natin kailangang magkaroon ng malaking event o happening in life para ma-consider na hindi nga talaga boring ang buhay. Na okay ka. Na kontento ka. O kaya naman, na masaya ka. Dapat, sine-celebrate pa rin natin ang buhay whatever happens. Kaya dapat kahit feeling ko nothing’s good or eventful ang nangyayari sa everyday life ko, I should have a reason to write something ’cause imposible na walang nangyari sa buhay sa bawat minutong nagdadaan.

Ewan ko nga ba, bakit minsan I think that way. That, my life’s boring. Kapag tinatanong ako ng friends ko, ‘O, what’s new?’ , wala akong masabi. Kasi wala naman talagang bago. Pero siguro rin, ine-equate ko yung mga life changing events or happenings sa buhay para lang masabi ko na, ‘yeah, may something new sa buhay ko..’. Na siguro dapat hindi ganito yung attitude ko.

The reason I posted this is because I’ve been noticing nga na mostly puro rants and complaints lang yata narerelate ko. Puro negative vibes in life. Na even ako nasusuya na rin hehehe:) Though I acknowledge the fact that what you feel at the moment whether it’s anger, annoyance, disappointments, happiness, etc., those are valid feelings kasi it’s based on one’s own encounter and experience. That I can rant about them all I want pero at the end of the day, I should try to get over it and move on. There are so many things in life na mas maganda i-appreciate. Well, actually ganon naman ako. Kaya nga sometimes when I write something negative, then friends will ask me about it, usually sinasabi ko, ‘wala na yon. okay na’ko.’ Siguro lang talaga, we need an outlet to release and this is one outlet for me. Marami lang talagang facts in life na sometimes hindi maganda. Pero okay lang, part yon eh. Usually sinapsyche ko lang sarili ko. Na, this is just today, just one day sa loob ng isang taon, marami pang mga araw..marami pang bukas. Well, enough of this. hehhe:)

Kanina nga pala, Ferna and I attended a career workshop along with the other B’s. Medyo natuwa ako kasi may realizations ako. Sa personalities, before Feeling ako ngayon Thinking na ko. Nag-iiba as years go by. Pero siyempre mas Introvert pa rin ako than Extrovert. And eto pa, pinaglist down kami ng mga gustong iachieve/iaccomplish or na-achieve/accomplished in life. I listed down: Millions, School for children, Charity or humanitarian missions, travel around the world, successful business, successful career and earn a Master’s degree. Then isa-isa, pinabawasan yung list according to what you want to give up and what you want to keep. I gave up school for the children first followed by master’s degree, charity, successful business, tour around the world and successful business. I’m left with Millions na lang. Na siyempre naman currently hindi sya mapo-provide ng current job ko. Pero, dun ko lang na-reliaze why didn’t it come to my mind to choose family or health or friendship or spirituality (just like Ferna’s)? Mukha na ba kong pera hehe…well hindi naman. When we were asked kasi to list 7 things down, I thought to myself dream big, achieve big, kahit lam ko medyo mahirap. After all, I never fail to pray for my family naman. Pero, hehe na-guilty ako. Anyway, enjoy pa rin yung workshop ’cause as I’ve said marami akong na-realize.

Tomorrow nga pala, Nyles is going back to SG already. Lam ko nalulungkot siya. As I advised her, marami pang chances for her to go back here. And she’s fulfilling a part of her dream there. The other part is just waiting for her here…