outburst

I feel kinda sad lately. Not really sure why..I don’t know. 

Boredom. Stress.  Uncertainty. These are three of the things that contribute to it, I guess. The first two will always be a part of my everyday life. But the third? To be uncertain is such a burden. What am I so uncertain about? Why is it that I feel this way? There are so many things that I want to do, to see, to experience, to look forward to. I’ve written and told my friends about it so many times: that I don’t know when or where to start. I’m just plain complacent, so passive in life that things within my grasps seem so unreachable. Huh! Sometimes I get tired of thinking of what I should do. Fear is always present. I just don’t have enough guts to follow my heart. Hayyy! 

Last night, I was attempting to write to my other blog but couldn’t write any. So I finally gave up and told myself, next time maybe. I was a little frustrated. Not being able to write anything about yourself, about what you feel, about your day, etc. And I’m supposed to be writing for myself! It’s an anonymous journal. Yet, I couldn’t translate my thoughts into writing. I shouldn’t wait for something big to happen to be able to communicate what I feel! It really frustrates me. 

Yeah, it’s one big proof that I’m burnt out and couldn’t think straight.