the reason…..my reason

I’m not a perfect person. There’s many things I wish I didn’t do. But I continue learning. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go…that I just want you to know.

I’ve found a reason for me. To change who I used to be. A reason to start over new…and the reason is you.

I’m sorry that I hurt you.It’s something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I’ve put you through.I wish that I could take it all away. And be the one who catches all your tears….

that’s why I need you to hear.

I’ve found a reason for me. To change who I used to be. A reason to start over new…and the reason is

you.

I’m not a perfect person. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go…that I just want you to know.

I’ve found a reason to show. A side of me you didn’t know.

A reason for all that I do.

And the reason is you.

* I’ve liked…I mean loved this song eversince. I first heard it when I was still an ATL and was assigned to monitor a team on GY shift. They’ve been playing this song over and over and over again. Then it dawned on me that…this song is for me. At that time, I was dedicating it for someone though the lyrics and meaning of the song didn’t quite fit our story. 

Now, I don’t anymore. It’s not for him. It’s for someone else now. This song is perfect for me/us. Every lyric of it. A very memorable song.

I wish I can undo things. I wish I can undo events. I wish that they didn’t happen. But they did. Still, I’m grateful for what I’ve learned. Yes, I can’t undo what happened then but I can try to re-do things in the future…if fate will allow it.

the promise

if you wait for me. then i’ll come for you. although i’ve traveled far. i always hold a place for you in my heart.

if you think of me.if you miss me once in a while. then i’ll return to you.

i’ll return and fill that space in your heart.

remembering. your touch. your kiss. your warm embrace.

i’ll find my way back to you. i’f you’ll be waiting.

if you dream of me like i dream of you.

in a place that’s warm and dark. in a place where i can feel the beating of your heart.

i’ve longed for you and i have desired.

to see your face your smile.

to be with you whereever you are.

remembering. your touch. your kiss. your warm embrace.

i’ll find my way back to you.

if you’ll be waiting.

together again.

it would feel so good to be.

in your arms.

where all my journeys end.

if you can make a promise, if it’s one that you can keep.

i vow to come for you. if you wait for me.

if you wait for me. and say you’ll hold.

A place for me. in your heart.

*tracychapman*

PS….

will. heart. you. in. forever. be. my