broken vow

I’ve broken my promise…the promise that I’ll be a wise spender.

I just bought myself a new Lacoste Inspiration perfume. Actually, I really want to try Lacoste eversince but I’ve been fighting the urge to buy one. Currently I have four perfumes and 5 colognes that I bought from the US. I love perfumes and colognes. Whenever I spray some to my wrists, I just couldn’t stop smelling its scent. So, I shouldn’t buy anymore but urges sometimes make us break the rules. At first I was just looking and kept on reminding myself that I don’t really need it. And when I smelled it, I never cared anymore if I’ll break my own promise. My resolve wasn’t strong enough though I’m quite happy with it.

I still need to keep that promise, no matter what. I want to be able to save more now. I should, I should, I should. I can, I can, I can.

disappointments

I

Michelle’s wedding is fast approaching and we’re all excited to be there. She required us all to wear dresses. I’m not really into dresses and skirts. It’s seldom that I wear those types of clothing but since all my friends (Ferna, Suby, Love and Taj) will wear a dress, I’m pressured.. Well okay, not really pressured since nobody can stop us from doing or choosing what we want. I thought, yeah okay, I’d like to wear one too. And since I don’t really buy dresses, I was really having a hard time finding something that suits me. But the truth is, it excited me. I never thought that looking for a dress will, but it did. There were so many pretty designs and colors to choose from which made it even more difficult for me to decide. Two days ago, Ferna, Karen and I went to Megamall and Trinoma in search of a dress. Finally, in Trinoma, Ferna (who decided earlier she’s not going to buy a new one) ended with a blue sexy dress. Karen too got her own brown silk 70’s style dress. Me? After almost 3 hours of walking and looking and fitting, I still wasn’t able to get one for myself. It was disappointing for me that day. If only I was looking for a pair of jeans/slacks or blouse, I would have finished in less than an hour.

Yesterday, I was in Trinoma once more since Suby and I will meet there to watch Caregiver. I went there ahead of time so that I can still look for that elusive dress heheJ  Unfortunately, I still wasn’t able to find one. I want to give up already hehe! Today, it’s Megamall again and hopefully, I’ll find the one I’m looking for.

II

Minutes before 7pm, we’re lined up for a cinema ticket and very eager to watch Caregiver because it tackles the life of Filipinos working abroad in healthcare profession. Overall, the movie’s okay. I was prepared to shed some tears but most of the scenes just didn’t touch my emotions enough. I was a little disappointed with the movie because I was looking for more. I thought, if only it’s Ate Vi…hehe.  Then we had coffee at Starbucks after.

toast to the friendship

Yesterday, Pam and I met with Axcel at GT. Axcel is a GT employee rin before but he decided to move on and work abroad as an engineer (I forgot what company he’s currently employed at). I introduced Pam to Axcel and that started our friendship since 2003, I think. Every time Axcel goes back here in the Philippines for a vacation, we usually meet and lagi niya na kaming nililibre J  We had lunch at GT Podium deck and later that night, we watched Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull.

Regarding the movie first, actually I’m not a fan of adventure movies, that’s why I didn’t enjoy it. I enjoyed their company siyempre since it’s really seldom for us to be together naman. Halos hindi ko na nga naintindihan kasi may moments na nakakatulog ako. If it’s a horror film, suspense thriller, comedy or romance, I would have been all eyes and ears. Well, siguro depende rin sa adventure films coz I really, really enjoyed Angelina Jolie’s Lara Croft movies (first, she’s my favorite Hollywood actress and 2^nd, her Lara Croft movies were all good). Anyway, after the movie I decided to home already while they still strolled in the mall.

Si Axcel, mahilig gumawa ng mga poems, etc. Even before, when he was still with GT, ginagawan niya ko ng mga poems and I told him nga that I really appreciate lahat ng poems na ginagawa niya for me.

Later that night, Axcel forwarded a message to me which goes something like this:

Pam asks: “Why are we still friends after all these years?”

Axcel answers: “In this journey, there are those whom you met and leave as you go on. And in this journey, there are those whom you met and take along with you. Friends are treasures forever.”

Pam says: “Huhuhu!”

So, I told him I miss his poems. Sabi niya, he’ll make a compilation for me heheJ This is what he forwarded to me and yet to be continued….” I’m picking up stones along the road. When I crossed the fires and rivers, the stones turned into diamonds.” (I’m eagerly waiting for the completion). I suggested to make a poem about destiny ..heheJ Way back, pinapabasa niya muna sa akin and then ako magbibigay ng title.

He also never forgets to call during Christmas or New Year even if he’s abroad, kahit na married na siya now. Eto yung mga friendship na nami-miss ko especially if guy yung friend ko. I used to tell him anything especially about matters of the heart and he gave me lots of wisdom to go by. I’ll never forget those times. I really treasure my friendship with him, kasi it’s the kind na walang demands. Come as you are lang. During college, I had lots of close male friends but when I started working na, medyo wala na. Ever since, I really wanted to have a male friend para may variety, pwedeng may maibigay na male point of view on things etc..and at least now, I have that with him.

to be continued

I’m kinda busy lately because of a project sponsored by our group. Last Friday we stayed until 3am and went back to the office on Saturday. Since we’re trying to complete and test everything, it’s possible that we’ll spend overnight in the office again. I just hope that everything will go well as planned.

On the other note….

I miss watching movies now. The last one that I’ve watched was..hhmmm…I can’t remember what it was anymore. Anyway, the one movie that I’d like to watch is ‘Caregiver’. It was shot in London, I think. The movie will give us a view of the life of the Filipinos in healthcare profession. Actually, my brother who also works as a nurse in the US is very interested to watch it. We were chatting yesterday and told me has seen the trailer of the movie and that he can really relate to some of the scenes. He told me that he has been screamed at too by some of his patients. It was really a survival. Being apart from family, he has learned how to be stronger, emotionally and psychologically. One needs to be tough beause it isn’t easy.