wala lang…..

I feel sad today. I think, I missed Niles..hehe:) You know the feeling when you're looking forward to be with your friend. Kasi alam mo na kayo-kayo na lang ang magkakasama and that no matter what, you feel good when you're friends are around. We were texting kanina and I told her I'm feeling less motivated now….it's good that at least I saw my crush (hehe) at the bridgeway. At least for a while, I felt happier and livelier. I don't know what I feel sometimes, it's a roller coaster. I feel slowly, one by one, unti-unti na kaming nauubos. Now, Niles is thinking of going abroad (well, I hope that she finds and gets what she's really looking for). When the time comes for her to go away, of course I'll be sad…but that's life, people come and go, even friends. When that happens, it'll be Taj, Love, Jeanne, Ferna, Cheska and I na lang. Kung tutuusin marami pa naman kami it's just that kulang na…:(

But of course, I'm still thankful, I always am. I've got so many things to be thankful for. I've so many blessings and even if I complain sometimes, I will be forever grateful. To complain is just an outlet for me but it doesn't mean I'm tired of life already…it's just a normal process that a person goes through in life. Anyway, yun nga, I may say that I'm not motivated today but it doesn't mean I will be tomorrow or the next day.Minsan lang talaga there are factors that we encounter that will lead us to feeling or thinking a certain way.

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I'm listening now to a Tracy Chapman song that I really like entitled, " The Promise". It's a very good song. It's about waiting. Here are some of the lyrics:

" If you think of me, if you miss me once in a while, then I'll return to you and fill that space in your heart…if you dream of me, like I dream of you, in a place that's warm and dark, in a place where I can feel the beating of your heart. "

"Oh, I long for you and I have desired, to see your face, your smile, to be with you wherever you are…In your arms, where all my journeys end…I'm bound to come for you, if you wait for me. Say you'll hold a place a for me in your heart…"

The first time that I heard it way back, I liked it already. Whenever I hear that song there's only one person I can think of. I wonder where he is now. I hope he's safe and happy. Though our roads haven't crossed yet again, I know he's out there somewhere…beyond my reach..making his own journey in life. Once in our lives, we meet people who create that biggest impact in us….people that are not easy to forget…people who still hold that special place in our hearts no matter where life leads us…it just doesn't change. Forever embedded. Constant. Unforgettable.