thoughts today
Friday, May 18, 2007Happy Birthday NYLES! (girls night out)
Haven't been writing for quite a while. I guess, I just abandoned my blog just like that…well though I've had slack days the previous week, still I was too lazy to update it.
Anyway, tonight we're going to have our girls night out. Actually, it's an advance birthday celebration for Nyles (her birthday is tomorrow). We're all wearing pink as we feel it will make us feel 'girlier'…hehe:o) We're going to paint the town 'pink.'
We haven't decided yet where we're going after Shangrila. We're thinking if we're going to Cheska's since she's all alone there (Taj is in Malaysia and Love is in Boracay) and watch dvd or have an inuman session or anything goes na lang. Basta, whatever we decide on I'm sure we'll enjoy the night.
Gnawing Feeling
I was chatting with my Kuya yesterday. I told him I want to go abroad since I'm feeling less happy in the past few days. I really can't comprehend why. I'm thinking of so many things. I want to change some things in my life. I want to widen the scope of what I've gotten used to. I want a different environment. I want to feel more inspired and motivated. I want to do things I don't normally do. I want..I want…I want… It seems now that I'm wanting more than before. Somehow, I'm getting bored and a little lazier now. It seems like I feel that my life is so routinary. I go to office everyday, go home, get up again in the morning, go to office again, go home…once in a while I go out with friends.
I know this is just one phase that I'm going through and sooner or later, I'll get over this uncomfortable feeling. When I feel these things, I welcome it because they make me realize how I've been living my life. It makes wake up from a long sleep and try to change even little by little the things I want to change or improve on.
Well, whatever happens. My future/destiny lies in my hands. Only I have the power to change what I need to change, to do what I need to do. So, let's see where will I be 'cause that will tell how I managed my future. The best is yet to come…I'll try to look for it, work on it and dream it. A long way to go. I need to be ready….more than ever.
