racquet

Ferna, Ms. Cecille and I played badminton yesterday. T'was my second time to play badminton. The first time was with Chayong and her friends.I really got a big purple bruise and had muscle strain that lasted for about a week. I couldn't really move with ease that time because of the strain.  I've always liked badminton though I never had the time before,  well….maybe because I'm lazy (?).  Hmmm, I think not..I had various physically demanding activities when I was in college. Since I started working I never had the time to be active again nor involve myself with different activities that are not really physically demanding. We really wanted to have extra activities that will at least shy us away from our daily routines. We realized our lack of it and with the influence of friends, I think I'll try to be more active. The advantage of it is that you not only get physically fit but you learn to socialize with others as well and widen your circle of friends.

That's it for the mean time. I wanted to write sana about our night out escapade because we really enjoyed it, the usual girl bonding and all and with pictures to prove it..hehe. Well, next time na lang.

Serenity

Many times I’ve been in this situation where I ask God to give me courage to accept the things I can’t change and to try to change the things I can. Actually, that’s what I’m trying to do now. T’was foolish of me to have prayed for this so many times and yet I’ve never done anything. I just swam with the flow and accepted things without even trying to fight. I’ve been telling myself that maybe I really need to change. That it doesn’t mean when I try to change I will let go of my values, too. Now, I know what to do. I just hope that I’ll be able to fight my weaknessess and be the kind of person I really want to be. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not I don’t like me. There are just some things that I need to improve on, some things that will make me learn more and accomplish more, as a person.

I’ve been stubborn almost half my life. And it got me lost. That’s what I’m struggling with eversince and now, I’ve made up my mind…I’ll try to change the things I can change. Whatever the outcome will be, it’s okay. No pain, no gain. The time to act is now.

thoughts today

Happy Birthday NYLES! (girls night out)

Haven't been writing for quite a while. I guess, I just abandoned my blog just like that…well though I've had slack days the previous week, still I was too lazy to update it.

Anyway, tonight we're going to have our girls night out. Actually, it's an advance birthday celebration for Nyles (her birthday is tomorrow). We're all wearing pink as we feel it will make us feel 'girlier'…hehe:o) We're going to paint the town 'pink.'

We haven't decided yet where we're going after Shangrila. We're thinking if we're going to Cheska's since she's all alone there (Taj is in Malaysia and Love is in Boracay) and watch dvd or have an inuman session or anything goes na lang. Basta, whatever we decide on I'm sure we'll enjoy the night.

Gnawing Feeling

I was chatting with my Kuya yesterday. I told him I want to go abroad since I'm feeling less happy in the past few days. I really can't comprehend why. I'm thinking of so many things. I want to change some things in my life. I want to widen the scope of what I've gotten used to. I want a different environment. I want to feel more inspired and motivated. I want to do things I don't normally do. I want..I want…I want… It seems now that I'm wanting more than before. Somehow, I'm getting bored and a little lazier now. It seems like I feel that my life is so routinary. I go to office everyday, go home, get up again in the morning, go to office again, go home…once in a while I go out with friends.

I know this is just one phase that I'm going through and sooner or later, I'll get over this uncomfortable feeling. When I feel these things, I welcome it because they make me realize how I've been living my life. It makes wake up from a long sleep and try to change even little by little the things I want to change or improve on.

Well, whatever happens. My future/destiny lies in my hands. Only I have the power to change what I need to change, to do what I need to do. So, let's see where will I be 'cause that will tell how I managed my future.  The best is yet to come…I'll try to look for it, work on it and dream it.  A long way to go. I need to be ready….more than ever.

good morning

Lai (a friend from my first job) and I watched Spiderman last Friday at Shangrila. T'was a very good movie and I enjoyed it a lot. Then Jen texted me if we could meet again since Pam was asking if we could have our 'inuman' session (and Pam just went out of the hospital and was staying in a hotel). Flor texted me that she's with Pam already and that Jen and I should just meet her there in Monumento. I told them that I was still watching the movie and will just proceed there maybe with JEn since she too was in Pampanga that time.

The movie ended at around past 9pm (we got there at 630pm). Then me and Lai had a small talk outside Shangrila while smoking. We talked about our jobs, lives and other people. Then she asked me if I have a new prospect already to which I said 'no, none at all.' Lai's also sort of like me, a little conservative and still unattached. I know that she wants to find her prince charming and I told her it will come. Told her too that she doesn't have to mind the pressure other people put on her because it gives her extra worries to carry. She once told me that she envies me because I carry myself well and its as if I don't have pressures of wanting to have a boyfriend, it's like I don't worry at all. It's like I'm not pressured. I just told her, that of course,who would not want to have someone special in your life. It's just that I don't allow other people to pressure me. When it comes to that stuff, I am the only one who can pressure me. After all, I know myself more than they do. I just don't know if Lai has the same faith and belief but sometimes kasi, she's always worrying. It's not that I don't worry at all, of course I do at times but I always manage them because basically, I'm really a worrier too. I just count my blessings and see that my little worries in life are nothing compared to the blessings that I have. She's my friend and I want to impart little things that I learned in life to her and, she to me. 

Whenever I meet different sets of friends or colleagues, I always look forward to this kind of talk. It feels nice to share your thoughts and feelings to the people you care about because you know that they will understand. Most importantly, they listen well and give you a piece of themselves. They know you too well to judge your actions. They believe that whatever made you do a certain thing is because you have a reason for it, they may not agree to it yes, but they respect your decision.

It's really nice to find true friends who make your life even more meaningful despite the distance and the rarity of moments of being physically together.