sex and the city

     I was watching tv this morning and happened to switch the channel to 2nd avenue ( a new cable channel in our area). SEx and the city was on. Actually, I have the complete season in dvd of it but I cannot remember having watched this particular episode. Anyway, the scene was they were in a restaurant and Carrie was telling them that she felt embarrassed because she farted in front of Big. Miranda said it’s okay because she’s only human and human beings fart. Then Carrie answered that she just wants to be perfect for him because he is perfect.  Then another scene was, Carrie and Samantha were doing yoga and she told Samantha the same thing she told Miranda, that she farted in front of Big (she justified to Samantha what Miranda advised her that she’s just human….). Samantha had a different reaction from Miranda…that girls shouldn’t really fart in front of a man…and so on. 

     Carrie just wanted to be in her best self and behavior. She cares for the man that’s why she’s really worried that it might turn him off. And it happens to all of us, only in different circumstances. But usually the same feeling- shame, embarassment. Yes, it is a common knowledge that we’re only human and we sometimes do imperfect things but even with that justification, we still worry. Even I, in that situation? Yes, I’d feel embarassed. But of course, if the man is really interested and what he feels is true then it shouldn’t be a problem. After all, in some cases…it really is inevitable )

     Some of us wants to be perfect for others. We want to show our best self when we are in front of them. We don’t want to turn them off, maybe thinking that if they won’t see our flaws then they will like us more. But most often that not, it doesn’t happen all the time. Whether we like it or not, our flaws will show no matter how much we try to mask them. And it’s okay, we’re not perfect. The person we try to impress is not perfect, too. That alone, comforts me.