On Vacation

‘m currently vacationing now and having fun, y’know, away from all the hustle and bustle of work life:) On my second day, my brother and I drove to Chicago. Of course, t’was exciting for me coz’ the first time I visited here back in 2008, we weren’t able to visit Chicago. Chicago’s a nice city. So many tall and beautifully made buildings. I actually enjoyed it there. T’was a little cold yes, but the sun was shining and it kind of lessened the cold. It felt good to walk and just y’know, take some pictures. There were many tourist taking pictures as well, especially Europeans. My favorite landmark is the Millennium Park. I really loved ‘the bean’, the reflection of Chicago skyline is indeed amazing. We stayed there for a while and just gloried in it. I guess, taking pictures and tourists in Chicago is an everyday thing to Chicagoans and they don’t mind it at all.

We’re supposed to drive back home the same day to Madison but my brother decided that we should stay for a little while. He made a reservation to Hyatt hotel and stayed for the night. I know he wanted me to see more of the place coz’ he’s been there a number of times already. And, I really appreciated it. The next day, we rode the two decker bus. Though it was very cold, I enjoyed it a lot. It’s easier to take pictures and see things from up there.

All in all, our Chicago trip went out great. It’s what I expected it to be. The next thing I’m looking forward to is our summer getaway in Florida this week..yey!

Coco’s Day 2

My dog, Coco, died today. I felt so sad before I left home. If only I had known that he was not feeling well already, I would have brought him to the vet. My mother told me that they already noticed that he lost his appetite and was not eating since yesterday. The problem is, they did not tell me about it. Just last week we brought my other dog Lexi to the vet since he was having flu like symptoms, no appetite and was vomiting. Fortunately, he is okay now. Unfortunately, Coco did not have that chance. If only I knew that he was sick…:( Such a sweet dog! I actually did not cry as much as I did with Maxi, but I loved them both. I know that one of these days, I will get used to him not being around. But I will always remember him. I have not gotten any replacement yet for Maxi. And maybe, I will get a replacement for Coco, too.

RIP Coco

Date of Death: March 1, 2010

I welcome me!

It’s been a while since I’ve last written something. It’s not that I didn’t have time, just wasn’t in the mood, I guess. Though every now and then I still visit here and some blog sites I’ve loved reading.

On some work-related stuff first. I like the group where I’m in now. I feel so much alive and useful, hehe:) It’s not that I wasn’t before, maybe I just really needed to be more ‘on the go’ than just sitting all day and do reports:) Well, both ways, I felt okay there but I feel happier now. I like the people I’m working with and the fact that I used to work with them before makes the environment more familiar. Jeanne and Ferna joked that I’ve a lock-up, just like a loyalty offer ’cause this is the second time I’ve transferred to another group. And, I realized that what Ferna told me before is true. I maybe hesitant with my decisions at first and most of the time it really takes a long time for me to act on it… what’s important is that I acted on it.

Lately, I haven’t been able too to go out with friends. Y’know, just simple dinner, coffee and movie. But this March, I’ll be on morning shift, so I’ll have more time to go out with them. Last night, since I was on 8 to 5 shift, we (with Ferna and Jeanne) had a simple dinner at GT podium. We stayed up until 9pm. Just did the usual stuff over dinner…updates and then some.

Well, I’m excited to have my vacation too this April. I’ve never had a fun, fun vacation last year. So, I’m super excited. My flight’s already booked on April 16. Yey! I’m so looking forward to it. I’m sure to enjoy the stay more this time  ’cause it’s going to be Spring when I go there.

super random tots ko

1:26am

Can’t sleep. I got home at 11 pm from work and the traffic in Balintawak was really bad. Halos 1 hour din ako na-stuck sa traffic. The cab driver was dosing off already. I’m really hoping na matapos na ang MRT/LRT construction, hay.

Lumilipad ang isip ko. Siguro dahil inaantok na rin ako pero I’m trying to fight it. Anyway, weekend naman and I can afford to sleep late.

Tagal ko rin di nakapag-update dito. Maybe because I wasn’t inspired. Though from time to time I still check it and nagbabasa ng updates ng mga friends sa blog nila. Anyway, bakit nga ba di ako inspired? Buti pa sa FB kahit papa’no nakaka-update ako.

Gusto kong magpaka-senti ngayon. So, nakikinig ako ng mga senti songs. Wala lang. I’m trying to relate some events in my life sa song na tumutugtog. Hehe. Kawalan ng magawa.

By the way, I’ve started another journal using Microsoft Office One Note 2007. I like it because there are so many templates to choose from. Like a spiral notebook talaga. I decided din na sa journal na yun magsusulat ako ng mga tipong ‘An Open Letter to ——-’. Para mas ma-express ko yung feelings ko or just to tell someone things that I can’t say in his/her face. No holds barred. Ganon. I think, the first one I wrote way back college pa was an open letter to my father. So this time, it is applicable to all.

Sige na nga, I’ll stop this nonsense na. Pagod na isip ko..hehe:) Feeling ko very subdued ako ngayon. Next time na lang ulit, pag mas may sense na’ko. hehe.

que sera sera

T’was a very boring day. Not so much happening aside from the usual ‘talks’ about ‘what’s gonna happen in the coming weeks.’ Work’s okay. I’m just not that inspired or is it Monday blues? Well, if it’s meant to happen, so be it. It’s time to move on then. Not yet too late. Nothing is. Whatever.

this and that

I can’t use my old laptop anymore. I’m not sure if it’s because of a virus (because of my non stop downloading of games via torrents) or because I deleted an important file in the system or something. I’m not really sure which. Actually, it’s kinda old na rin naman and I’ve been wanting to replace it since. The other night I was still able to use it. Then when I went home yesterday, my youngest brother told me it’s not working anymore. I hope it can still be repaired, anyway. I bought a new one today. It’s a 14inch Acer laptop and the specs are okay. I was at first hesitant because it’s in Vista already and I haven’t tried Vista yet. I’m used to XP. Well, I’m not really that techie anyway and I just do the basic stuff like internet browsing, playing games, using Word, etc. Just the basic, so no great worry for me.

By the way, some unexpected things are happening now but I won’t elaborate anymore. It just keeps us worried and a little agitated. Still, we believe that everything will go well. We have to remain positive.

my random thoughts p2

I’m dying to have another diamond peel this weekend (exaggerated me). I’ve actually been looking forward to it since the last time I had it. It’s been working for me and I’m going to maintain it. Maybe I’ll have an appointment for tomorrow and probably buy something. Hmmm..I’m thinking of yellow. It’s summer already and you can really feel the heat. And I always associate yellow with summertime ’cause it looks so cool and fresh.

Today too, I’ve cooked penne pasta (my favorite) for lunch. It’s been months since I last prepared a meal for myself. I know I’ve not been eating good the past months and my weight scaled down to 99lbs (original weight: 105lbs). I was actually shocked to find that I got thinner. My friends and officemates have noticed it as well. Actually, they were the first ones to tell me. Since last year, I was so stressed with work and haven’t been eating well which means that I don’t eat on time. And I completely lose my appetite and only eat very little. Well at least now, I have more appetite. Just last Thursday I went to our office clinic and weighed again. I’m at 100lbs now. The nurse commented that I was so light and and asked for my height and told her that I only stand 5ft tall anyway. She said that my weight’s just right for my height. Then I told her that I’ve just gotten used to being always above 100lbs and I don’t really intend to get thinner. Well, honestly, I’m liking it at 100lbs. I feel good about myself than when I was 105lbs or more. So I think, this is the ideal weight for me.

That’s it for now. Just random thoughts. I hybernated from my blog for a while ’cause I couldn’t find any inspiration to write. So does this mean I’m inspired now? Hehehe…please read my last night’s entry:)

Mars and Venus

Can’t think of anything but suddenly I got inspired and wrote this:

You, Mars…is a planet that I cannot reach and I cannot touch. You revolve on your own and so I am, with mine.

When you stop by in my planet, you lighten up the dimnness and weariness of my heart.

The joy it brings is something that I cannot fathom.

I once tried to leave my planet. Then settle to another one.

To a more glorious, more colorful world.

My resolve was so much that I could have left.

Then one day, I woke up looking afar and outside Venus. And there it was….

The other planet that revolves too just beside mine.

I walked straight into it, stopped by for awhile and looked around.

And maybe, just maybe….I thought, it would be nice to live there.

From that time on, I find myself always going back…to Mars.

To your planet.

Because that is where I see myself,

….in your world.

BREAKAWAY

This is my song of the moment. This is what I feel now. And this is what I want to do….in due time.

 Photo by flopper

Grew up in a small town and when the rain would fall down I’d just stare out my window.

Dreaming of what could be, and if I’d end up happy , I would pray.

Trying hard to reach out but when I tried to speak out, felt like no one could hear me.

Wanted to belong here but something felt so wrong here, so I prayed….I could break away.

I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly. I’ll do what it takes til’ I touch the sky.

And, I’ll make a WISH, take a CHANCE , make a CHANGE and BREAKAWAY.

Wanna feel the warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree, feel the rush of the ocean.

Get on board a fast train, travel on a jet plane, far away (I will) And breakaway.

Buildings with a hundred floors, swinging around revolving doors 

Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me BUT, GOTTA KEEP MOVING ON,  

MOVING ON, FLY AWAY, BREAKAWAY.

I found this poem too by Siddharth Anand , entitled Soultstrong;/ Breakaway:

Abandon the past.Throw away the baggage. Suffer no more. avast (stop now). Break away from the chains and shackles which from you, your life take away; Breathe again; this time without constraint. And the dreams in your eyes, Realize.

Forget fear. Forget the barriers and the walls. Even the greatest of mountains on your feet will fall, when you with self-trust stand tall. Walk away from those who try to cheat on your soul. Don’t stall. Remember the wisdom of those wisemen the universal law will square all.

Dream and don’t give up. And if they don’t shape up, try.  Try once more. Don’t breakup. For the race of life is won, not, by the fastest  or the strongest;

But, by the one who can give his all…….

some updates

Work life the previous weeks was very toxic. Me and my team mate didn’t even have our restdays. We’ve been going to the office for 13 straight days since Jan 25. We’re both feeling the stress and the pressure plus the exhaustion. I was even prepared to go on a graveyard shift to man the extra manpower that we’re supposed to be having this Monday but it didn’t push through. Lucky for me:)… but not for the project. I hope that every thing will go well because we’ve exerted all our efforts in it and I want to see it come into its full completion. Yes, there are some problems that we’re encountering right now…but what the heck…every problem has its solution anyway. 

Also, I needed to break the bad news to my friends that I won’t be able to go with them in Singapore this Feb. My boss didn’t approve my vacation leave due to the project. And I understand that.

Well, that’s it for now. I’m really taking advantage of my weekend rest today. The coming days will be tough again for us.